The passion of our lives
Posted on May 27th, 2009
by
Centria
I am thinking about Passion this morning and what fills the nooks and crannies of our souls with delight. What are we doing right now that ignites the fire of passion within us? What sparks our joy, our excitement, our smile of delight for what's blossoming in this strange and confusing and beautiful world?
Someone, perhaps Emma on Facebook (for those of you who remember EmmaTree from here on Gaia) posited the question recently, something like "Tell me something that matters to you or excites you." For some odd reason, after she asked that question, nothing sizzled up to the surface in my life. Excitement? Hmmm... Maybe going to NYC last week? Seeing my daughter? Watching spring flowers bloom? Splitting firewood? (nahhh, not really! at least the firewood part of it. The NYC trip, my daughter & the flowers qualify, though.)
Yesterday our Artist's Way group met in our living room, moving deep into sharing the way we resist our passion and creativity, the way we sometimes avoid, turn away or block our creative streams. Suddenly, the passion which has sustained me for so many years consolidated crystal clear and I realized: I love words. I love the way words dance together, the way they marry, the way they dive in the creek and splash in the cold waters of the stream, breathless. Just watching that sentence appear filled my whole being with heart-pumping joy.
Words sing cantatas in my cells, trapeze from the third eye down into the solar plexus, waltz with shy does under a full midnight May moon. Words sizzle the stars. They blossom. They wither. They grow wrinkled and wise or soft and gentle as milky babies breath.
They're magic to me. And they've been that way since age nine, sitting before that old Underwood typewriter in my bedroom, pushing down the stiff keys with unpracticed fingers, filled with disbelief the way the words etched in smudged black-and-white and created the heavens. The words provided a back alley to God.
Don't get me wrong. I love viewing photography, art, visual media. Listening to songs, music, rhythm. Especially merging into those that gesture toward that same passion, that igniting of feelings... Art in its many-bursting colors can burst our doors wide open, so that hummingbirds dart in the living room, circle around our heads and buzz outside again.
So may I ask any of you who care to share: What ignites your passion? What do you do in your life that starts the juices flowing, the heart pitter-pattering, the smile gladdening? (and it can be a little thing, a simple thing, a small shard of a shell of passion or a big grinning sun in the bright blue sky...) **And if Siona has already asked this question, which she probably has, substitute "What's Your Passion TODAY?" because each day's passion might taste of a different wild tea, a frothy latte, a luscious raspberry pie.
Someone, perhaps Emma on Facebook (for those of you who remember EmmaTree from here on Gaia) posited the question recently, something like "Tell me something that matters to you or excites you." For some odd reason, after she asked that question, nothing sizzled up to the surface in my life. Excitement? Hmmm... Maybe going to NYC last week? Seeing my daughter? Watching spring flowers bloom? Splitting firewood? (nahhh, not really! at least the firewood part of it. The NYC trip, my daughter & the flowers qualify, though.)
Yesterday our Artist's Way group met in our living room, moving deep into sharing the way we resist our passion and creativity, the way we sometimes avoid, turn away or block our creative streams. Suddenly, the passion which has sustained me for so many years consolidated crystal clear and I realized: I love words. I love the way words dance together, the way they marry, the way they dive in the creek and splash in the cold waters of the stream, breathless. Just watching that sentence appear filled my whole being with heart-pumping joy.
Words sing cantatas in my cells, trapeze from the third eye down into the solar plexus, waltz with shy does under a full midnight May moon. Words sizzle the stars. They blossom. They wither. They grow wrinkled and wise or soft and gentle as milky babies breath.
They're magic to me. And they've been that way since age nine, sitting before that old Underwood typewriter in my bedroom, pushing down the stiff keys with unpracticed fingers, filled with disbelief the way the words etched in smudged black-and-white and created the heavens. The words provided a back alley to God.
Don't get me wrong. I love viewing photography, art, visual media. Listening to songs, music, rhythm. Especially merging into those that gesture toward that same passion, that igniting of feelings... Art in its many-bursting colors can burst our doors wide open, so that hummingbirds dart in the living room, circle around our heads and buzz outside again.
So may I ask any of you who care to share: What ignites your passion? What do you do in your life that starts the juices flowing, the heart pitter-pattering, the smile gladdening? (and it can be a little thing, a simple thing, a small shard of a shell of passion or a big grinning sun in the bright blue sky...) **And if Siona has already asked this question, which she probably has, substitute "What's Your Passion TODAY?" because each day's passion might taste of a different wild tea, a frothy latte, a luscious raspberry pie.

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Kathy, I knew it! I always knew we were sisters, somehow, somewhere. We had an old typewriter, Remington, I seem to think. I fell in love with words the day those neatly formed squigglys in the readers started to take on meaning, and I swear I started writing from that moment. I used to write stories to read to my younger sisters. I stopped when I was 9—long story, but according to the elders I was writing nothing but lies (I liked to write in first person even then, and like most children I had a heck of an imagination), so I gave it up, my *voice*. My life has been about getting back to the joy of writing, of expressing. TG for DD!
And I love the synchronicity of this, you writing this blog at this time—just on the weekend I felt driven to add something more personal to my profile page, and here's what burbled up:
Here's the thing, I love to write. In fact, playing in the word sandbox is just about my favourite thing to do in the world. I love to make words fit together just so, I love to split their atoms apart, I love to wallow in the muck of them. I love to stretch the rubbery silence between them to see how much give I'll get before they all go smuckety-smuck and topsy-turvy, colliding, bouncing against one another like the little numbered balls in a lottery bubble. Who will be the next big winner? What new megastar or constellation or even universe will I find glowing, twinkling, winking at me when the dust settles?
It was such fun! I felt so energized! And now that I've essentially taken over your blog, I'll quietly bow out and see what other readers might have to say to you. :)
Hi, Ruth, so far it's just you & me babbling about our love of words!! My heart leaped way into the skies yesterday just reading YOUR words. I love what you wrote on your profile page. Really, you stopped writing when you were nine? Because they said you were writing nothing but LIES…oh my, that makes a person want to cry.
I wrote a book about age 9 about this girl Gretl escaping from the Nazis. Tried to read it a few years ago…wow, a bit challenging. But it was so necessary to write those 134 pages back then. Also placed the words “I will be a writer” on a folded up piece of lined paper and scrunched it inside a heart locket and wore it for a few years. Still have that heart & paper. It's so faded now you can hardly read it.
I so credit Sandra and Diving Deeper for helping move me toward “sensuous” writing. To write so close to perception and not abstract ideas (which I have loved those abstract ideas so passionately that at first it seemed like a betrayal to them to start writing through the senses.) Sandra is a true gift to this community. It was lovely to meet her last November in Amsterdam.
About three days ago have been teased with the phrase “The language of the earth”. It keeps coming over and over again, like a mantra. So have been sitting down and doing freefall…and writing about the language of the earth the last couple of days. It feels like pure joy.
thank you Ruth! I love what you've said, and the way we're sisters in love with the same new megastars or consellations or universes which we're finding every time the words start freefalling through the sky of us!
i am very passionate about music, passionate about singing. When I'm preparing for a concert all kinds of things gets neglected so I can go over and over all the details of the works. This morning as I was trying to get back to sleep, I began to think deeply about the dynamics of a part of a work that the choir performed a few years ago, the All Night Vigil by Rachmaninoff - I was thinking about this movement -
Sergei Rachmaninoff's Bogoroditsye Dyevo (Ave Maria)
For me there are few experiences to rival the joy when during a performance it all comes together and I get to be a part of something beautiful, something awesome. Like when we did this part of the Brahm's Requiem (no, we didn't have Bryn Terfel :) but boy was it fun!)
Brahms Requiem - Mvt. 6, part 1
Nicole, how wonderful for you to have this passion!! It would be so wonderful to hear your choir singing some day. You have me thinking about how music can be a creative endeavor, how one can work through the dynamics and the movements…wow….
It must be special to be part of something that's larger than just yourself, and yet you are contributing to create the beautiful whole. I'll bet the joy does ignite your heart and spirit.
Beautiful links by the way, beautiful music!
Thank you for sharing your passion. Isn't it precious how different things spark us, fill us with joy?
Love you, Kathy
I get goose flesh just thinking about the connections. How does this happen?
This thing called synchronicity that flows though with us is a mystery.
Best to just smile, enjoy and savor the bliss.
Yay for the bliss and passion and synchronicity, Lars! I'm gettin' goose flesh now just thinking about it (although round these parts we call it “goosebumps”) MYSTERY! Thank you… :)
I like maudlin, malaise, lethargy, torpor, apathy, and glee and possibly incontinence.
Can lethargy be a passion? Torpor? Maudlin? Tom, you've just taken this discussion to new heights!! (Now I can see how glee and incontinence qualify, with just the right attitude, that is…) tee hee… You know what I think? You're passionate about Ordinariness! Right?