Oneness

I just returned from walking down the road with a plastic garbage bag, picking up road litter for spring clean up.  We've been doing this most years near Earth Day (if the snow is melted) since the kids were little.  The most interesting item tonight was a half-bottle of "Temptation Liqueur."  Never seen that brand before.

I thought about Oneness, and my eternal quest to experience it, and began to widen my peripheal view to feel and sense everything in the universe as one.  As often happens, my eyes began to ache. 

Suddenly, in a flash, I had this inner knowing that the search for Oneness had so often just been a grasping after a concept.  It was just another concept, a spiritual concept for sure, but another concept.  Same with enlightenment.  Just another thought.

And looked at the world and knew that Oneness was just this.  No trying.  Just the world its Oneness before a single thought, before a single concept, before a single trying.  This seems way too simple.  Hardly enough to mention.  Who knows if it will make any difference in action?  Who cares?  I am so tired of searching for 21 years, of never being completely One in what is.  And yet, at this moment, it seems utterly clear that I was one it what was, and yet somehow had managed to deny it.

Silly humans, we are.  (P.S.  I am not claiming enlightenment or anything here!  And don't even know if this will be remembered in its clarity tomorrow morning....)  Time to finish bagging up the garbage from the road.  Part of the Oneness in which we are.